AWAKEN

Last April 27 is my birthday, i usually do some assessing , this time i didn't do it, for I know everyday is a new day with God, I don't suppose to feel guilty of the things I haven't done,letting go and forgiving is already given to us,I look back to my last blogs, full of confusion, guilt and worries,,,and yesterday after our care group(bible study) I was AWAKEN, i shouldn't feel those things for i am insulting the Lord..religious? well, better be than proud and miserable.Counting my blessing..as if i'm an actress with a long celebration with different people,,blessed ,blessed, blessed .



Since April 13 Katrina started her therapy with a new school (old as well as new) she's been there before, we didn't continue in St. Francis because it's so far located in Quezon city, with everyday session, long hours of travel, bigger expenses, and tiring..so my husband and I decided to enroll her here in Bf Pque instead..Father Gualandi school for hearing impaired children,,i schedule her therapy with Faith only..3x a week so calculate it in your mind to how much will it cost us in a week and so forth..by faith because i don't know where to get our payments for it,,truly God is faithful, after I enrolled her a day before she starts somebody gave her for a 6 sessions, before it is finished somebody again gave her 10 sessions, then my birthday gift another 4 sessions..truly God is just telling me , He will be in control. Last March and early week of April I'm busy with DSWD i'm applying for her scholarship..the letter is with the school already, we are just waiting for the result, but I'm confident it is positive.



Katrina is starting again with A E I O U sound, if she can identify it and say it using her audio or through listening only, at first she's having a hard time..but in God's time I know that she will talk just like any other kid..

Now, I'm just grateful to God for using the people around us, and I'm so happy I met them all.Truly , I can say it's worth celebrating my life.

Grace, I asked of thee

Every mapping, therapy, every meeting with doctors, i went home with tears...I'm so guilty.. i didn't do things right, maybe I give up in some ways , somewhere from one year and 8 months, i did something wrong...

Katrina haven't utter any words, suppossedly she is talking now, i've seen her bacthmates same hearing age now talking... It's been one year and 8 months now after her implant.

I feel so bad, frustrated..and trace back what happened,,i want to explain myself to everybody including myself, her therapy is on and off, so does wearing of her processor,i have to attend to my other kids who are demanding my attention, i told myself, i have other kids too and they also need me.OTHER household concerns.etc etc

I need to start again, i have "catching up todo" , she is far far behind her age, also with her hearing age.. i want to shout..i want to cry for help, help me to forgive myself, to forget the things i have done or not done, it's so overwhelming..and i'm panicking, time is ticking.

I pray for grace, to get me get through with this...there is a dead line for her spoken language