When i feel this way i go back to God and see my position as His Child. All the efforts will be paid up, i know,,,i will teach me even repeating it 100x
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Fight the good fight.
I saw her drawing again, and look at it , there are words in the drawing as if it's a comics but no meaning. and she read it to me ba,ba,ba. Still, no words, where have I gone wrong? 2 years now and 2 months now after her implantation. Been trying to reach to her, Is it me, is it my fault? NO, God has a plan and the healing is coming.
Monday, October 4, 2010
anybody from La Salle Taft,Admin or teachers
anybody from La Salle Taft,Admin or teachers
i heard there is a SPED scholarship in La Salle and i am so much interested, i 'm just hoping somebody from my multiply friends now something about this, I will go next week together with Katrina at PID, my mind is so full of things again,,decisions that will make a big difference again,i pray God to give me revelation to this ,,
Friday, October 1, 2010
PRESSING ON
I just met a mom in sm southmall , just like Katrina she also wears cochlear implant but different brand, we speak the same language, asking same questions, feel the same frustrations.
She said one word that struck me "Kung alam ko lang na ganito kahirap hindi ko na sana pina implant ang anak ko"( If i only knew how hard it is, i wish i didn't gave her implant) .
Even though, I been in all trials before, during and after her implantation , i will never said this words..I will never regret i gave her a cochlear implant. Hearing the world is a connection to people, we will all go into process and process hurts and hard but we will pass this, we will move on, inspite the circumstances I will still praise God, and continue to proclaim she is healed.
Cochlear implant is a gift from God, with the help of all His angels, it is a tool for my child to hear and speak, and I know miracle will happen,,,i will press on,,,,without any regrets
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Novel
People sometimes think that language is just about conversation but it's more than that. It's how children learn about the world.Without the ability to understand speech, Katrina can't understand the concept of danger, so how can i keep her safe?
She has to be shown everything. I have to demonstrate every possible danger instead of being able to tell her. Sometimes I feel like I'm swimming across the ocean. I can't tell you how many close calls there have been. Climbing too high and wanting to jump,wandering away,walking up to growling dogs. She didn't know to be afraid.
Those are only part of my worries. Most of the time , I worry about the obvious things. Whether she'll be able to talk normally, go to school, make friends, be accepted. It's not exactly what I imagined raising a child would be like.
We have to understand..Katrina works so hard everyday. While other kids can play outside,she has to sit in a chair, staring at picture books, trying to figure out the world. It takes her hours to learn what other kids can grasp in minutes.
She has to be shown everything. I have to demonstrate every possible danger instead of being able to tell her. Sometimes I feel like I'm swimming across the ocean. I can't tell you how many close calls there have been. Climbing too high and wanting to jump,wandering away,walking up to growling dogs. She didn't know to be afraid.
Those are only part of my worries. Most of the time , I worry about the obvious things. Whether she'll be able to talk normally, go to school, make friends, be accepted. It's not exactly what I imagined raising a child would be like.
We have to understand..Katrina works so hard everyday. While other kids can play outside,she has to sit in a chair, staring at picture books, trying to figure out the world. It takes her hours to learn what other kids can grasp in minutes.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
AWAKEN
Last April 27 is my birthday, i usually do some assessing , this time i didn't do it, for I know everyday is a new day with God, I don't suppose to feel guilty of the things I haven't done,letting go and forgiving is already given to us,I look back to my last blogs, full of confusion, guilt and worries,,,and yesterday after our care group(bible study) I was AWAKEN, i shouldn't feel those things for i am insulting the Lord..religious? well, better be than proud and miserable.Counting my blessing..as if i'm an actress with a long celebration with different people,,blessed ,blessed, blessed .
Since April 13 Katrina started her therapy with a new school (old as well as new) she's been there before, we didn't continue in St. Francis because it's so far located in Quezon city, with everyday session, long hours of travel, bigger expenses, and tiring..so my husband and I decided to enroll her here in Bf Pque instead..Father Gualandi school for hearing impaired children,,i schedule her therapy with Faith only..3x a week so calculate it in your mind to how much will it cost us in a week and so forth..by faith because i don't know where to get our payments for it,,truly God is faithful, after I enrolled her a day before she starts somebody gave her for a 6 sessions, before it is finished somebody again gave her 10 sessions, then my birthday gift another 4 sessions..truly God is just telling me , He will be in control. Last March and early week of April I'm busy with DSWD i'm applying for her scholarship..the letter is with the school already, we are just waiting for the result, but I'm confident it is positive.
Katrina is starting again with A E I O U sound, if she can identify it and say it using her audio or through listening only, at first she's having a hard time..but in God's time I know that she will talk just like any other kid..
Now, I'm just grateful to God for using the people around us, and I'm so happy I met them all.Truly , I can say it's worth celebrating my life.
Since April 13 Katrina started her therapy with a new school (old as well as new) she's been there before, we didn't continue in St. Francis because it's so far located in Quezon city, with everyday session, long hours of travel, bigger expenses, and tiring..so my husband and I decided to enroll her here in Bf Pque instead..Father Gualandi school for hearing impaired children,,i schedule her therapy with Faith only..3x a week so calculate it in your mind to how much will it cost us in a week and so forth..by faith because i don't know where to get our payments for it,,truly God is faithful, after I enrolled her a day before she starts somebody gave her for a 6 sessions, before it is finished somebody again gave her 10 sessions, then my birthday gift another 4 sessions..truly God is just telling me , He will be in control. Last March and early week of April I'm busy with DSWD i'm applying for her scholarship..the letter is with the school already, we are just waiting for the result, but I'm confident it is positive.
Katrina is starting again with A E I O U sound, if she can identify it and say it using her audio or through listening only, at first she's having a hard time..but in God's time I know that she will talk just like any other kid..
Now, I'm just grateful to God for using the people around us, and I'm so happy I met them all.Truly , I can say it's worth celebrating my life.
Friday, April 23, 2010
Grace, I asked of thee
Every mapping, therapy, every meeting with doctors, i went home with tears...I'm so guilty.. i didn't do things right, maybe I give up in some ways , somewhere from one year and 8 months, i did something wrong...
Katrina haven't utter any words, suppossedly she is talking now, i've seen her bacthmates same hearing age now talking... It's been one year and 8 months now after her implant.
I feel so bad, frustrated..and trace back what happened,,i want to explain myself to everybody including myself, her therapy is on and off, so does wearing of her processor,i have to attend to my other kids who are demanding my attention, i told myself, i have other kids too and they also need me.OTHER household concerns.etc etc
I need to start again, i have "catching up todo" , she is far far behind her age, also with her hearing age.. i want to shout..i want to cry for help, help me to forgive myself, to forget the things i have done or not done, it's so overwhelming..and i'm panicking, time is ticking.
I pray for grace, to get me get through with this...there is a dead line for her spoken language
Katrina haven't utter any words, suppossedly she is talking now, i've seen her bacthmates same hearing age now talking... It's been one year and 8 months now after her implant.
I feel so bad, frustrated..and trace back what happened,,i want to explain myself to everybody including myself, her therapy is on and off, so does wearing of her processor,i have to attend to my other kids who are demanding my attention, i told myself, i have other kids too and they also need me.OTHER household concerns.etc etc
I need to start again, i have "catching up todo" , she is far far behind her age, also with her hearing age.. i want to shout..i want to cry for help, help me to forgive myself, to forget the things i have done or not done, it's so overwhelming..and i'm panicking, time is ticking.
I pray for grace, to get me get through with this...there is a dead line for her spoken language
Saturday, February 6, 2010
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