THANKFUL

Last Saturday , May 23 . We went to Philippine General Hospital to give gifts, food and encouragement to pediatric and surgery patients. My friend Kcat who have tumors (NF2) also deaf, celebrate her birthday there, she's already in her wheelchair and half body dead, she's 26years old. Kcat is my angel , she helps me make Katrina website for our fundraising for Katrina's cochlear implant (http://katrinahears.multiply.com/) and as we give , my heart clenched , i want to cry for the children i see , I hugged the mothers for I know what they feel and said a little prayer. I can see their eyes with new hope when my friend speak eventhough it's hard for her to speak, encourage them that life moves on inspite of sickness. This is girl undergone so much surgery and still in wheelchair yet, she encourage people , I was amazed,inspired and humbled. I've been complaining of our life. Then, i see my little angel , boy Sabobo, his also deaf, but i already helped them to get a hearing aid. However, he have to be operated again and again for his eyes and clef. I see her mother smiled when we visited them with my friend Kcat , again they gave them hope.

I'm so blessed to have Kcat as my friend,She's an angel here on earth and I won't stop to be a blessing to other people, even for a moment.

Katrina is improving every day, and I know one day she will be talking just like any other kids, she will be my testimony to others that God made miracles....

I will bless somebody in times of my hardship

I'm tired of never ending begging, never ending asking for help, yet I remember that My Father in heaven have more than enough..I just need to wait and Praise Him while waiting and Praise Him during the hard times. rejections after rejections. I don't want to work to leave them inorder to pay for the therapist so my flee continues. Then, i received a text from a friend, the friend I helped few months ago, her child is much worse than Katrina because he is also deaf and have eye problem that needs to be operated for so many times and their indigent people that only rely on Philippine General Hospital charity, my heart cries for them more, I went to visit them last 2 weeks ago, i thought the child was already operated because it have been rescheduled for so many times , to the extent her Philippine Charity Sweepstakes Organization endorsement already expired, sad to say it still rescheduled again and again, why ? only one thing, they need things connected to money. It will be easier if they are not in Charity, they need plasma ,doctors etc etc etc. And through that God showed me we are more blessed, and we need to bless this people even in prayers,encouragement and whatever i can do for them . And I said to myself, I will bless them, so they will feels God's love in their times of hardship.
- Katrina's mom

Good and bad news

For months I've been waiting for it to open,,the agbell assistance, and now its open and we are not qualified..because I'm from other county with no insurance and no free of anything. This morning I'm so happy to hear my Katrina says, hi , fish, banana, because i stopped her therapy for 2 months now, and doing all by myself, and I'm proud of her. Happy then sad,I'm tired of begging, I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. A place where we count AV schools in 5 fingers and almost no therapist at all. When I read some of the websites of what they have, I'm dying of envy and how I wish I'm there, oh if they only knew how hard it is for somebody when you all choose to have wants best for your children within your reach. My heart cries,,,I'm just happy to see that I have my computer to access all the links. I just remind myself to count my blessings,and be happy that she is already implanted one ear, even my blood came out just for her to have it, to raise for it , to beg for it. And it's never ending a long journey for me and her. It's harder because we are lacking in our resources, but i know we will surpass this, she will talk one day . I will post the videos, just like the time I am asking for help for her cochlear implant. WE will make it through this, I know! For God is there for us!

FRUSTATED IN MYSELF

As i remember in my last blogspot last February, I said to myself , I will teach Katrina by myself, lessons came from JTC last March 18, and I'm guilty not religiously following it,,,, ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.

It's easier to say about how will you do it, excited to do it, but my God! It's hard doing it, the implementation as I say in my work, planning, conceptualizing is easy, implementing and monitoring is the hardest, it needs dedication, patience, consistency. AAAARRRRGGHHHH!

God called me to be a stay home mom,. to be a teacher to my 3 children, to love and nurture them in my hands...*@#% it's hard,,,,someone help me please!!!!!

Let me talk to 1,000 people, let me do an event for 24 hours, let me talk for 24 hours, let me do leg work and marketing strategies and blits , give me out of the earth QUOTA, but please not this!

It's easier to hit a figures than to hit a development in ones child..... RESULT ORIENTED,,,,yeah , that's me in WORK in OFFICE not at home...mama mia, ok
courage, no more courage! one by one....


Relax , take it easy, write everything down, and stick to it...wwaaahhh!