When your best is not good enough

WHAT HAPPENED AFTER 4 YEARS

For  all the things I have done , just to give her the implant, for all the people who lend a hand just to hear her talk...

I feel like dying, I gave up ,,November 1,2011 Katrina stopped wearing her processor (hearing aid) ,she do not want to wear it anymore..it was broken for a while but after fixing it, she don't want to wear it anymore..

from one school to the other, from one therapy center to countless therapy teachers and center..
waste of time and waste of money..

Then, I decided,,,,what should i do for the time being , what is needed  , BASIC COMMUNICATION.. without her device..and a very long hard road for her to speak up..SIGNING!!! I do not care what  people will say, as long as i can understand my child, as long as she is happy with her surroundings..as long as  she can understand us.

I STILL DO NOT REGRET I had her implanted, she will still use it someday...but God knows how struggle it is with me to end this way..

This is not the goal,,but what is HER goal, What will make HER happy,,one day she will be big enough to decide on her own,,at least it's already there inside of her.